As noted with ¿Truths? Part 1, I am choosing to offer these thoughts simply to encourage growth. I submit them simply for self-study as an example of one person’s searching — such self-study is a very powerful way to come to know yourself. The list of these truths is long and I will submit it over a number of blogs, 25-30 brief statements per posting.
As previously noted, a comment on language: I am not an advocate of scientific materialism, the philosophic ontology that only science can address truth, and that energy-matter is the only domain of experience in the universe. I value scientific methodology highly, but the overall terminology of scientific materialism has many hidden presuppositions. As much as possible, I will identify them in these posts.
[An apology also — sometimes the formatting offered by WordPress is very limiting! An aspect of technology that I hate is that it forces me into processes that I do not want in my life; yet the same technology offers many advantages. Thus my common statement: Technology is wonderful — when it works.]
(80 — continuing from previous) Reactivity is a habit! And like all habits, sustained by laziness!
(81) I cannot solve life’s problems except by solving them.
I alone am 100% responsible for everything that I feel, think, and do! People may stir my pot or push my buttons, but I provide the pot and the buttons.
Personal freedom has to do with having many choices, acting on those choices, and dealing with the consequences.
(82) Awareness is essential! My “attention to my ongoing spontaneous sensations and perceptions” is fundamental (and may be developed through discipline).
The more grounded I am in Now, the more choice I have. When I distinguish between my perceptions, and how I interpret these perceptions (my story), the more choice I have.
This is the basis of personal freedom (and of power and strength).
(83) My awareness is often rapid and fleeting, just barely within consciousness.
This is especially true of those perceptions that I wish to avoid, those that are painful to confront.
(84) “The Rules” (the social constraints as to how I and you should be) are generally out-of-consciousness. They are so familiar, and so pervasive, that it is simpler to keep them out-of-consciousness; then we can be ‘good little boys and girls,’ approved of by others, especially our parents.
(85) Two of the major rules are:
- ‘don’t talk about the rules—keep them out-of-consciousness’ and
- ‘your rules are the same as my rules.’
(86) These keep me safe — and keep life complex.
I learned these rules as a small child, asking questions when others were uncomfortable or anxious. Rather than acknowledge their discomfort, they criticized me and, in my pain, I learned not to speak about the rules. Eventually I learned not to think about the rules.
I also had to assume that each one of us obeys the same set of rules. It was the only way for me to make sense of my world.
Then it seemed like I could avoid the pain. And I could for a while.
(87) A major difficulty however occurrs when I moved out of my family of origin, into another family of my own creation. And I assume that everybody had the same rule!
Not a good assumption! My partner has a different set of rules, also in the other-than-conscious domain. So we fight, and wonder what is happening, but we can’t talk about the rules. That breaks the rules!
The consequence is called Guilt!
(88) Guilt is useful for about ten (10) minutes.
Guilt is the meaning/energy I give to an issue when I break the rules.
If the rules are out-of-consciousness and I cannot talk about them, I have created a problem for myself.
(89) If I am guilty, then I am attempting to give myself a message about a problem, usually about a belief of mine that I am bypassing.
I have broken some rule as to how I ‘should’ act.
(90) The rule is out-of-conscious, likely because I hold it as a ‘should’ rather than a ‘want.’
My growth work is to hear the message, and decide if I want to attend to it or not. If not, I need to resolve my guilt; if so, I need to be in action!
(91) As with ‘guilt,’ so the above is applicable to ‘embarrassment,’ ‘resentment’ and ‘rebellion’—they are useful for about 10 minutes.
I am ‘embarrassed’ when I assume you will criticize me for breaking the rules. And, after all, you have the same rules as I do! So you know when I am breaking the rules!
I ‘resent’ you when you break the rules, my rules, and I am unable to talk about the rules. And, after all, you have the same rules as I do! Don’t we?
I ‘rebel’ when you attempt to impose your ‘rules’ on me, rules I don’t want to acknowledge, because we cannot talk about them. That breaks the rules!
(92) I ‘shame’ myself when, in addition to being trapped in breaking the rule, I consider that I am also bad for breaking the rule.
(93) If you want to be a slave, harbor your resentments and your guilt.
They bind you to your out-of-conscious rules. Such crazy rules!
(94) I have a set of tools for solving problems; they are called actions. My disciplines are also actions. Depending on the stresses in my life, I need different tools at different times.
(95) I can only solve problems through actions! I can act my way into a new way of thinking; usually I cannot think my way into a new way of acting.
Interaction with life involves risk! There is no risk in thinking; thinking does not mobilize action. Intention mobilizes action!
(96) Actions speak louder than words; they are also more truthful!
(97) I have a body! I use my body to be in action. It is the only body I have, or will have. I need/want to keep it healthy.
More than anything else, health involves intelligent attention to good nutrition, regular exercise, and effective responses.
(98) I use my body as my source of information.
All biological organisms are designed to receive information (awareness—sensation through sensory systems) and act on that information (action—response through motor systems). All information comes to my mind from my body (perhaps!? — consciousness is very complex, probably more than my simple body).
(99) Given that I am a spiritual being, it is probable that there are other sources of information. However, in the complexity of our modern materialistic world, it is difficult to determine what these other sources might be, or to access them in reliable ways.
My body is my best starting point.
(100) My body (body-mind-heart-soul-spirit) is a vast system of communicative networks, responding to demand. Three systems predominate:
- Neurological: electro-chemical orientation, an organizing neuronal/humoral network (uni-cellular), encoding information, responding in milliseconds to seconds. Principally responsible for temporal consciousness and memory.
- Cardiovascular: fluid pressure orientation, a distributive network (multi-cellular), transferring information/resources, responding in seconds to days. Principally responsible for ??? (¿felt sense—emotionality or spiritual?).
- Myofascial: mechanical piezo-electrical orientation, a structural network (extracellular), allowing movement within the exo-system, responding in days to years. Principally, it seems to be responsible for energetic consciousness and memory.
(101) The purpose of my mind is to be a delay loop between awareness and action! Almost always, when I am suffering, I am stuck in the delay loop.
(102) The system (me) is well-designed—not omnipotent, just well-designed.
(103) The system is so well-designed that almost always my body knows my truths, and what actions are appropriate.
Usually this occurs long before I am ready to acknowledge this information consciously.
(104) Action clears the delay loop for new information, and new possibility.
(105) Action can be specific (this is what I need to do—so just do it!) or it can be non-specific discharge (exaggeration, role play, anger discharge in safety, etc.).
Both satisfy the system. (This is one of the fundamental distinctions of my Blowing Out work.)
(106) If at first you don’t succeed, do anything else that is different!
(107) Some actions are more useful than others—they generate the outcomes I want. This is called being effective.
I stop myself from this because it “doesn’t feel right!”—it does not correspond to the way life ‘should’ be. I call this purity —and generally I want purity!
‘Feeling’ has nothing to do with right or wrong; ‘shoulds’ certainly do!
To be continued.